As I continue my martial arts training I've discovered that things come out that I didn't even try to work on. Confusing I know. Recently I read an article about how a martial artist should still have fear and not have a chip on their shoulder about knowing martial arts, and that we still need to have full awareness of all situations. Very true.
But reading that reminded me about one of my recent discoveries. I'm not as fearful as I used to be. I'm just not. I attribute this to studying martial arts and the attention I give to my practice while I'm in class. I've been hit, kicked, surprised attacked and it.s this kind of conditioning that has helped.
Where I know we have fears, I think what we fear deep down is the pain. How much will it hurt? How long will it hurt for? Think of all the pain people go through that are assaulted and abused. We fear that pain. This fear of pain is an enormous obstacle to the things we choose to do or not do. Think of how you practice in class. When paired with a partner for kumite does the thought quickly pop in your head, "they're close, I hope I don't get hit 'cause it'll hurt!." You then begin your practice guarded and with less intent and energy.
Sometimes we fear hurting others too. We feel bad when that happens and we retreat our intentions so it won't happen again. Both of these types of fear are like a black cloud that unconsciously hangs over your training, holding you back.
I am no longer thinking of the pain. If it happens I'll push through it; I'll have to because my life may depend on it one day. Once this fear of pain is gone we have the freedom to explore new things; either in your personal life or your martial life. The kumite you practice with that partner will become more real, more worthwhile, more exciting. You venture into things you only thought about. Discarding the fear of pain will open many doors, and one of them will be the door for your full potential.
Work hard, train purposefully, and be happy.
- Sensei Laura (A.K.A - Uma)include 'archive.php'; ?>